A Walking Contradiction

So this week has been eventful...but I have some to realize a few things. I don't like the way I am. I wish I didn't act the way I do, but the problem is, I really don't know how to be anything else. I know what I want, but I don't know how to get it. It's all a very confusing thing anymore. I don't want to be single, but I dont want to put time and effort into a relationship that may or may not work out. I can't stand going to classes, but I know that I wont get anywhere without them. I feel like sleeping is a waste of my time, but I seem to be doing an awful lot of it, lately. I have come to realize, that I am a walking contradiction. =(