Kay.. so yea, I am doing a blog about my New Year's Resolutions. I want to, and this is my blog so this is how it goes. I feel like this makes it more....what's the word? Concrete? I guess thats what I'm going for...Either way, you get what I mean.
1. STOP SMOKING!!!! I can and will... ( I can do all things through Christ who strengths me....)
2. Stop biting my nails...yea, nervous habit I picked up as a kid, and the more I learn about it, the more I need to stop.
3. Get back on a better sleep schedule... staying up til 4 and 5 AM just isnt good for me.
4. Read my Bible every day. I bought a Daily Walk Bible, so hopefully this will help with that.
5. Floss every time I brush my teeth.... don't judge me. You know you dont do it every time either so =P
6. Lose 20 lbs...yea...normal NYR....but its something I want to do for me.
7. Once I stop smoking...set aside one day every other month to fast. (UNTIL I stop smoking.. do a technology fast twice a month.)
8. On the other months, do a one week Daniel's fast.
9. Witness more...
10. Treat myself and those around me with more kindess.
P.S
There will be a new blog about whats going on soon, but right now, I have a headache and just want to go to bed, Goodnight my dear readers, I love you all. God Bless!!! =)
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Sunday, December 6, 2009
All in the Timing
Okay... I have so much to say, but I bet this will be short. because I really don't think I'll be able put everyhing thats going through my head down in words. That's actually a very frustrating thought. =(
At church tonight. The preacher preached one of those messages. You know the ones where you are 100% SURE that he was reading your journals before church? Yea, just like that. I feel like my faith is dwindling. Its not unbelief, but doubt. Until tonight, i believed those were pretty much the same thing. Brother G cleared that up for me. Doubt is NOT unbelief. It not that you don;t believe God, but you have a legitimate question. While questioning God isn't the right thing to do, I believe that almost everyone alive today has at some point in their lives had a moment of doubt. whether it lasted 30 seconds or 30 years, we've all been there.
Its been extremely difficult for me to get into the presence of God lately. I'm not exactly sure why. I don't remember if the stray came before or after the first service that I couldn't feel God, but either way, the two situations fed each other. However, tonight, as I began to pray, I began to weep. I felt the presence of God rush over me, my Comforter. It was THE most perfect timing. I guess that's just how God is. He's an ON TIME GOD. (GREAT song btw). I love Him dearly. Currently rebuilding my faith...
Then...after this, there was a run-in with an elderly lady in my church. In all honesty, I do not like her very much. She made me so angry, that i believed I lost my blessing. I don't enjoy being angry, mostly for this reason. The devil joyfully attacks me the same way, every time. He has used so many different people in my life. I will not continue to allow this to happen to me. He has stolen too much, and I have let it happen. This is a result of laziness. It's time to let God be my defense, and start working on my offense. How can I win souls for the kingdom of God if I am too busy ALWAYS looking over my shoulder? God can and WILL take care of me. It's time to let go and let God.
In the end, the devil still hasn't won. I will commit to God, til death. <3
(so much for this being short)
In Jesus' Name...
At church tonight. The preacher preached one of those messages. You know the ones where you are 100% SURE that he was reading your journals before church? Yea, just like that. I feel like my faith is dwindling. Its not unbelief, but doubt. Until tonight, i believed those were pretty much the same thing. Brother G cleared that up for me. Doubt is NOT unbelief. It not that you don;t believe God, but you have a legitimate question. While questioning God isn't the right thing to do, I believe that almost everyone alive today has at some point in their lives had a moment of doubt. whether it lasted 30 seconds or 30 years, we've all been there.
Its been extremely difficult for me to get into the presence of God lately. I'm not exactly sure why. I don't remember if the stray came before or after the first service that I couldn't feel God, but either way, the two situations fed each other. However, tonight, as I began to pray, I began to weep. I felt the presence of God rush over me, my Comforter. It was THE most perfect timing. I guess that's just how God is. He's an ON TIME GOD. (GREAT song btw). I love Him dearly. Currently rebuilding my faith...
Then...after this, there was a run-in with an elderly lady in my church. In all honesty, I do not like her very much. She made me so angry, that i believed I lost my blessing. I don't enjoy being angry, mostly for this reason. The devil joyfully attacks me the same way, every time. He has used so many different people in my life. I will not continue to allow this to happen to me. He has stolen too much, and I have let it happen. This is a result of laziness. It's time to let God be my defense, and start working on my offense. How can I win souls for the kingdom of God if I am too busy ALWAYS looking over my shoulder? God can and WILL take care of me. It's time to let go and let God.
In the end, the devil still hasn't won. I will commit to God, til death. <3
(so much for this being short)
In Jesus' Name...
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